I am Not Alone: A Prayer of Surrender

Nancy Bowers, RScP

I am Not Alone: A Prayer of Surrender
by Nancy Bowers, RScP

“Take the first step in faith. You don’t have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step.”  –Martin Luther King, Jr.

Sometimes there is a resistance that wells up inside and challenges me.  There are things I need to do to keep life on track – work, phone calls to make, bills to pay, meals, sleep, life.  All necessary things that I sometimes don’t want to do.  I want to escape.  I want to avoid life so I can pretend for a little while that everything is okay. 

Which it is.  But I can’t feel that when I am disconnected from the Divine. 

I feel burdened because I am, once again, trying to go it alone.  Yet I am not alone.  I can’t BE alone.  The Holy Spirit is forever with me.  The challenge isn’t that I have no help.  The challenge is that I don’t ask for it.  This prayer is for surrender.  This prayer is for allowing God’s Love to guide me.

There is One Life.  It is God’s.  Sometimes, I act as if it is mine apart from God, but it is not, for it cannot be, and when I act as if it is, I am only making things harder.  So, in this moment, I pause to acknowledge Truth: this Life is God’s Life and that life is my life now. For I am an integral part of God’s Life.  I am not the victim of circumstances.  I conjured those circumstances, and God, being a loving God, takes whatever mess I have made and turns it to good.  Life is for me.  Life is for all of us, despite the seeming differences.  I embrace those differences.  I allow them to take me ever deeper into the bosom of Love.  For knowing that God’s Love is fierce and total, I give up trying to do things myself.  I ask for help.  I listen to the answers.   In the moments when I am too agitated to feel God’s Certainty, I still myself and trust that I don’t need to see the whole staircase; I just need to step forth in faith, knowing God knows the way.  Let us still ourselves.  Let us be guided by God, by the Love that is everywhere present.  I surrender.  I trust.  I have faith that I don’t need to see how things will work for them to work out.  I don’t need to understand.  I just need to trust God.  They are already working out.  In fact, all problems are already resolved.   

I affirm peace.  I affirm love.  I allow the Love that is everywhere present to lift my heart to Heaven.  In God, I find solace.  In prayer, I surrender my fear.  I no longer allow those fears to trick me into thinking something is wrong.  Nothing is wrong.  Nothing is wrong, and just because life sometimes fails to unfold according to my expectations doesn’t make life wrong.  This is God’s Life, and therefore, it is in Divine Right Order.  Within that realization lies peace.  Within that realization lies hope.  Within that realization the Glory of God arises to lead me to bigger and better things.  I just had to let go of my own small ideas. 

I give thanks that this is true.  I give thanks that God’s Love is so complete that It looks past my follies.  I surrender to that Love.  I allow It to carry me back to peace.  I allow it to take me home, and back into God’s bosom.  I’m safe there.  We all are.  Would you like to join me?  It’s an excellent resting place.  Yes it is.  So I let go of trying to control anything and let God take the reins.  And so it is. Amen.