Light at the End of the Tunnel
by Nancy Bowers, RScP
So often when I am anticipating good things ahead, I think of it as light at the end of the tunnel. But that implies that the light is absent now. As I write this, I am in the middle of a thunderstorm. The rain is pouring down. It is dark. The light doesn’t seem to be here now, especially since sunrise isn’t for another fifteen minutes. Yet, the Truth is that the Light is always here. God is Eternally Present. I do not have to wait to experience goodness. It is here now. My failure to notice cannot negate that.
So in this moment, I stop to breathe in the wonder of God. I allow the Goodness that was always there to find me, to wash over me, to return me to the experience of all that is. I remember that God is Perpetually Good. I list the Goodness I can think of in this instant: Love, Peace, Understanding, Support, Harmony, Health, Prosperity, Comfort, Boldness, Graciousness, Wisdom, Omnipresence, Immutability, Wholeness, Oneness, Changelessness, Fearlessness, unfathomable Kindness, and Infinitely ridiculously Generous. I know that these qualities are mine, and that are everyone’s – everyone reading this prayer and everyone who will never know of its existence. We are all one and we are each God’s darling.
I settle into that knowingness. I allow the Light that was always here to find me. I remember that even amid seeming tragedy and heartache, I do not need to wait to get to the “end of the tunnel” to find the light. I need only the willingness to allow God to lead me. I need only the courage to peak my head out from underneath the covers I have been hiding beneath, and the “scary” will disappear. The Light is here now. God is present always. I am forever cared for. I am loved unabashedly, so deeply it is beyond my ability to comprehend that depth. I do not need to wait to get to the end of the tunnel. And neither, my friend, do you.
So I surrender. I give up thinking I know what anything is for. I let go of my small ideas and allow God to show me the Light. I am already at the end of the tunnel. In fact, there never really was a tunnel, there was only me burying my head because, for a while, I thought my notions of how things should be were superior to the Divine’s and I got upset when reality clashed with the images in my head. But I am willing to admit my foolishness. I am ready to concede that I am incapable of judging righteously. I let go of my fantasies of victimhood and injustice. I fall to me knees in gratitude at the magnitude of my Father’s Love.
God always had my back. Things were always working out. The light was never at the end of the tunnel, it was always with me, within me, and for me, and how grateful I am to know that. I may know nothing of how things are working out, but I know with all my heart and soul that they are because I know with all my heart and soul that God is here now. I bask in the love that always enveloped me. I relax into thanksgiving and allow God’s easy to be my easy.
Then I let go of what never was. For I live in the Light and I am claim that now for all of us; I claim the Love that was always there. I let go of the belief that there ever were any blocks. I step out of the tunnel and into the Light. It’s so beautiful there! It’s so peaceful in the arms of the Divine. And so it is. Amen.