Being with the Unwanted
by Chaplain Tilia Giron, RScP
It is not about denying it or pushing forward despite the fear, the pain, the angst or the worry. It is about being.
At least, that is what I have discovered as my way of dealing with the unwanted.
It is about seeing, seeing the fear, the pain, the worry or the whatever… It is about recognizing it and becoming intimate with it. Knowing it intimately.
Then, I can move forward. But only, after I be with it.
Being is the key.
For me, The Key to everything.
For you see, sometimes it only reveals itself to me as I am in it, not before, because it is a continuous process, this knowing, this revealing thing… That is why it is so important to be with it. Because as you be with it, without pushing it away, or even trying to think it through, it can reveal itself and more of itself to you.
Space gives it allowance and clearance to come forward into the open without fear – fear of the fear.
Thank you Spirit.
Thank you God for this night.
For this recognition.
For the season.
For this place and for the fear that it has brought into the open and the light for my seeing and my freeing. And for my knowing the way.
What a gift! I am grateful, and grateful to the fear for the teaching. It always has a teaching.