The Dance of Expectations
by Nancy R Bowers, RScP
“If you have lived for years expecting loss, instability, inconsistency, effort-based love, or disappointment, disappointment, then the nervous system will recognize those conditions as “normal” and anything outside them as “threatening,” no matter how good the new reality actually is. This means waiting for the nervous system to feel safe before stepping into the next level of your life is a trap … because the nervous system cannot feel safe in a reality it has not yet learned to expect.” Srivastava, Anushka. The Untriggered Manifestor How to Shift States, Change Timelines, and Manifest Regardless of Triggers (p. 16). Kindle Edition.
“Since everything is Mind in a neutral state, an impersonal, receptive, and creative state whatever is thought into Mind, Mind is going to do.” Holmes, Ernest. Love and Law: The Unpublished Teachings of Ernest Holmes (p. 38). Penguin Publishing Group. Kindle Edition.
Lately, I have been noticing what I find myself expecting. To my dismay, I’ve discovered, I am frequently bracing, as if I am anticipating the worst. Despite repeatedly stating, “The Universe is conspiring in my favor,” I don’t always act as if I believe it. This prayer is for breaking that bad habit:
God is. Changeless. Ubiquitous. Love. Peace. Joy. Natural Goodness. But also, neutral. Non-judgmental. Creative. Receptive. Playful.
I know, that which God is, I am. There is no separation. Therefore, I stand in this awareness and proclaim my desires with absolute authority. I do not need to worry (negative prayer!) about being good enough, or wise enough, or being anything other than what I have decided to be. I have decided to be God’s puppet. Whatever Spirit wants to express through me is where I align my intentions. I remember always that God’s will for me is so much more glorious than my limited mind can imagine, and so I surrender. I surrender to the Love. I surrender to the Peace. I surrender to the Joy. I delight in Spirit’s playful nature and allow it to color my life in beauty. I surrender to the Will of God, delighting in the knowingness that God can orchestrate life so much more magnificently than my limited mind can imagine.
Breathing into that awareness, I give thanks. I soak in Presence and allow God’s Will to show me the path of peace. I release any and all tendencies to think that I know anything, that I understand anything. I surrender to the mystery of God’s design realizing that Its arrangements include elements I never even considered, because without separation, the entirety of being is in the mix. I release all expectations born of fear, and remain present to the blessings being offered. I liberate past expectations and allow God to fill my mind with the dance of ubiquitous Love. God is. I am.
It is more than enough. And so, it is. Amen.